Get with the program...

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy. ~Cynthia Nelms

I have no idea who Cynthia Nelms is. I'll go ahead and make that perfectly clear. I do not want to sound more philosophical (or smart) than I really am because let's face it, I have better things to do than look for and read quotes. This quote showed up on my iGoogle page and I liked it. So I chose to make it a topic because I've been summoned to write something 'inspiring'. Apparently I provoke some sort of motivation to one particular reader.

So, JB...here ya go.

I looked at the quote and thought to myself, "get off your ass and stop feeling sorry for yourself. Life's a bitch and this isn't front page news."

I recently got the rejection of a lifetime (well, to date anyways). I got so close to an opportunity I could only dream about, so close I could almost touch it...taste it...become it. I was closer than I have ever been before and because the country, and the economy, are in the shitter my opportunity got cut.

So now here I am, back to the drawing board. I know I should not have put all my eggs in one basket, but I was an idiot and I piled the eggs until the bottom sagged. I was optimistic because everyone kept telling me that I had to 'see to believe', well that's just crap because I saw it, I believed it and I'm writing this blog from Topeka and not where I want to be.

"Have some faith," my best friend tells me. (Friends always know just what to say to make you feel unexplainably worse. I still love her though because I say that stuff to her all the time and I'm sure I don't make her feel any better either). It's almost as if somebody has some vendetta against me, like I wasn't meant to be a happy. I was destined to be miserable.

Then I bitch slapped myself and said, "look, the way I see it you have two options. You can get a plan B and be self sufficiant, or you can wait for Obama to share the wealth." If I've learned anything since October it's to not have any faith in anybody else when it comes to your own well being or happiness. I have to make something happen.

My parents made me into a slightly-optimistic-realist. Mom always says 'look on the bright side' and dad always says 'face reality'. So far dad's way of thinking seems to have made more of an impact. There have been a few times I peered through rose colored glasses, granted it was usually to make sarcastic commentary....I digress.

As the new year begins take a real look at yourself in the mirror. Ask yourself one simple question. If I don't see tomorrow would I be happy with the way I have lived my life? If the answer is no, figure out how to change that. Life is way to short to look back and say, gee...what if?

Make something happen, because nobody's going to make it happen for you.

Nobody owes you happiness, you owe it to yourself.


-MO-